Good grief, the more things change…..
Well, since the last blog I started somehow vanished into the maw of Tumblr, and I have decided to start posting (however irregularly) again, I guess it is time to put this one back into use. In point of fact it had gotten such brief use that I had quite forgotten about it and was going to start afresh, but when I opened WP and logged in lo and behold, there was this poor neglected scrap with a perfect title already in place 😉
Well, the place I had been so excited about moving into with my friend could have been everything I had hoped for, but…. Lets just say my former friend and I parted ways, she got the paradise-to-be and I moved on to a very nice trailer in a 55+ community with pleasant neighbors, reasonable lot rent and a cat.
It is a bit harder to change a trailer than a house, so I am having to get creative about things like storage (limited space and too much stuff). Happily I am creative, and also willing to let some of the excess stuff go. I am nowhere near the Zen space I once dreamed of, but the pseudo-Victorian/Steampunk vibe is coming along nicely. Slightly (coffcoff) cluttered, but fun and funky 😉
Happy to say my internal refurbishing is coming along as well. Just as I did after my widowhood, post blowup with my friend I went into a yearlong funk, though nobody around me could have told – pretty good at faking normal after all those years married to a schizo Peter Pan. So I went through the drinking too much, eating poorly and gaining back a bunch of the weight I had taken off during my 1 1/2 years hard labor AKA indentured servitude at the homestead.
After I realized recently just how far I had let myself fall I declared independence from my demons on the 4th of July – apt and not an accident, as now I will always have the holiday as a reminder if I backslide. Since then I only allow myself any sort of alcohol on nights when I do not have to go to work the next day, and sometimes I don’t even bother then – skipped it last night! Yay me!
My diet needs a bit more of a nudge, and I need to get more active (hard in this Florida summer heat), but actually with excess alcohol out of the picture, even after only 10 days I can already feel a difference. Not quite as bloaty and certainly more clear headed. Lots of hearty salad lunches, more chicken than red meat, and almost nothing processed.
Of course I do make exceptions – all things in moderation, including moderation. I keep salsa and frozen burritos in the fridge at work for emergencies like when I forget or don’t have time to get salad makings, or just need something more satisfying and substantial. They have also made me a good friend in a coworker who frequently forgets her lunch or simply needs to spend her money on feeding her kids. I figure I can spare a couple burritos for the cause.
So, yeah, I am going to start this again, try to update at least once a week, but who knows – I may wind up blathering daily or monthly. Since I do not expect followers, as this is primarily a place for me to vent, it hardly matters I guess.
If someone actually finds this and reads it, fair warning – this is not going to be carefully crafted for your reading pleasure. It will from time to time contain anything from vituperous rants about crappy drivers, to cuddly cooing about my lovely cat Nova, to discourses on whatever I happen to be reading or watching – all bets are off!